It always poses challenges when you are doing something  out of the kindness of your heart.  
I’ve learned that passion can easily be confused with ego.  But without passion, shit just plain
doesn’t get done let alone with no  budget when you need it done well.   I don’t know, there is
a certain amount of submissive style cruelty that a volunteer always gets no matter how hard
they work.   It’s my hunch that most artists get to feel this way because often times in order to
have the right to be creative at  all, most of us have had to give up more than one comfort along
the way.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m not whining  about it, but it takes a certain amount of
dedication to your craft to be  willing to starve for it….It’s an even deeper dynamic still when
you are having  your own projects AND volunteering to help other’s with theirs. 
 What do you do when they  both require full time pushing? 
 Some of you visiting here  won’t even connect enough to read this entire entry; you will have
already formed your opinions within the first sentence or two.  It wouldn’t matter if I was about
to die later in the paragraph, if I failed to get your attention, or if I lose your attention, you would
never know I’m about to die.  I feel that is the case with artwork so to many oftens!!!   Have you
ever loved anything that much?  Or for that matter have you  ever needed to accomplish creating
something so badly that it hurt your physical being to not be able to because of something stupid. 
There always seems to be some superficial limitation that prolongs your end result or you finally
after all the diligence actually get to finish  something that is worthwhile.
  

That’s what it’s like you know…creating… It’s like being willing to jump  off the bridge if that’s what it takes, but not because that egocentric critic  over there decided that you need to in order to prove that your dues have been  paid. I say NO WAY!!!  I don’t have  to jump off the bridge to take a real plunge, but I’ll freaking swan dive if it  will keep us going with our creating…   (Sigh)   It doesn’t have to be that way you  know….We are doing something new now….   Right??? The only difference between then and when we decide to work  together and let our passions blend into one impenetrable force is that I “used”
to wear penny loafers and I used to have shame over my freckles and red hair and  blue eyes because every person I knew at that time treated those that didn’t  have those attributes like a pile.   You don’t know me, or have any  kind of authority over me.  So why  do I give a shit that you do or don’t?  I shouldn’t, right?  I used to  pretend I wasn’t an artist.  Honestly, I don’t think you would  believe me if I told you that story but it’s true.  8  whole years I didn’t even pick up a brush. It was a choice.  Does it matter?    Should it matter? It’s in the past right? What should really matter is that I don’t have any shame left!   The only thing left is LOVE and a serious determination to create,  educate, and inspire others.  I’m  ready to be seen!   Sometimes  that’s not pretty is it?  To be
seen; really seen.    I hope the world  is ready but if it’s not oh, well.  I’m still taking that swan dive.

 
 
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Boy it sure has been an interesting and busy week full of both
feel goods and hard lessons.


Let’s see, I finished the initial building of both this site here
as well as my Husband’s. 
Coupstickmusic.com.  I
pulled a few still images from our video project, “Wind” so we can begin a
teaser for our eventual video release in a couple of months.


 
 
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What an amazing weekend!  I was invited by Paul Borrillo and his lovely wife Ericka of Borrillo Entertainment to be a part of an amazing fundraiser held at the RedLine Gallery in Denver this past Saturday Evening.  Proceeds went to "Raise the Arts" foundation.    Both Sophia Rose and Mythica Von Griffin were there with models as well Paul and Ericka with their Lamp piece. When done well, body paint magic is sure to wow passers by at the party!  And did they indeed!!!  All the pieces done were splendid, and it seemed that everyone there enjoyed our media choice for the event.  Body Paint is so misunderstood!!!  It's wonderful to be a part of some of the first real embrassing of this form in a main stream yet contemporary gallery.  It is hopefully only the beginning. 

I think my favorite part of the evening other than working with an amazing kindred soul as my model was to watch people react when they realized there was a person in that veggie display over there!!! LOL....  Gasps, and wows filled the air.   It was AWESOME!!!  It was such a fun place to be able to show the abilities it takes to pull off a piece like that.  Not just as an artist with preparation and time limitations but also with consideration to how difficult it can be to model for a piece like this. ~ open loading dock doors on naked skin for hours.  Meanwhile the catorers coming through misting every 30 minutes or so to keep the veggies fresh.  It certainly had to add to the torture that I'm pretty sure it was for her.   The beauty was an amazing example of someone that is passionate enough about art to go through that with me for all of you....  I am so happy to know you Rain!!!  You are amazing!!!  The final 2 pieces titles are "Goddess Salad"(Top of page),  and "Cannibalistic Kale" (upper left of post)!!!    http://redlineart.org/